Where am I going?

This Sunday I was taken as a +1 to a barbecue in Brussels. On the way there, I asked myself when I would return to Estonia in the big scheme of things. What irritated me was that I could not answer the question, even though I do have a feeling that I want to return there soon.

The reason this comes up is that I recently realised that the tutorial will soon be over and I will be in the "real" world. Of course, I have unconsciously conditioned myself through my studies that I will be doing mechanical engineering.

The slight problem being that in Estonia, the heavy industry, thus the field of mechanical engineering, is less represented than elsewhere in Europe. I asked Claude about it, and the answer started with "The market is thin but not dead."

So it would make sense to work somewhere around here, where I currently am. I discussed this with my friends, and we concluded that it is still a sandbox and that what I study does not determine everything else.

This became even clearer while eating the perfectly cooked piece of meat on the terrace. For context, many countries were represented at the table – Iran, Austria, France and Estonia. This was combined with many different backgrounds – music, architecture, hotel trade and well engineering. Discussions on that terrace helped me to realise that stability is a myth. What we can do is choose between different instabilities.

I really enjoy conversations with slightly older people. Even if their lives are just as chaotic, they are much more laid-back about it. This is just the state of things. There is no clear conclusion or solution to my question. And maybe that is okay for now.

This Week's Suggestions:

🎶 "Life's a Bitch" by Nas featuring AZ, Olu Dara:

Listened to some 2000's rap this weekend, and this song feels like a complementary reflection.

Have a lovely week!