Trash Talking the School System

In 3 weeks my classes are over and there will only be the final exams left to do. It is the end of prépa, the prestigious two years of hell. My mind is already on holiday. This is because there are a lot of public holidays in May which means we do not have a lot of classes compared to the usual 8 A.M to 6 P.M-ish Monday to Saturday rotation.

I've only recently started to realise the mental toll this intensity has had on me. There was one moment in the past two weeks that made me go "Whoa that's actually not okay." It was an evening when I got home from school around 7 P.M. I had done a 10-hour school day and as I sat on my couch I realised that I do not have any brainpower left to answer messages from friends. Something that should be a rather simple task in itself. I felt like my answering people would be wrong since I was just unable to emotionally invest myself in the information being passed on.

Another byproduct of the intensity is decision fatigue – after making a certain quantity of decisions the quality of those decisions deteriorates at a rapid pace. It is why I tend to buy junk food when going grocery shopping after classes and find it difficult to do a workout in the evening. How can one avoid decision fatigue when being in class for 10 hours a day though?

Even with hiccups here and there, I cannot deny that I have learned so much in the span of these two years. I am eternally grateful that I have the opportunity to study in Lille and get to interact with these funny French people. Even though I am glad that the prépa period of my life is going to be over soon, I know that I will cherish it in the future. It was a great experience to have but it is not one I would like to do again.

This Week's Suggestions:

🎶 "Eunuque Millionaire" by Pierre Moritz:

This song was shown to me by one of my classmates earlier this year. It is a very low-key and vibey house song. Something to play in the morning to get some positive energy going right off the bat.

That would be all for this 90th blog post!